a very long night

a very long night
a very long day
mcs breakfast
seiyu
lulu castagnette
fcuk
tons of fragrances
mcdonalds fishy after work
sprite plus boo
silent, 15 min, 120 km/hr journey back to hall
sweat, tears, blood
all in one wala wala night
perfect back flips, deepest drain
dignity, pride, courage
jus need that
love is here to stay
love is here to go
deja vu
very amazed, sad, disappointed what effect love has
a very long night
a very long day


to L, if you even see this
there's a reason for everything which happened.
i'll be praying hard for you.
“God, grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
and wisdom to know the difference.”
This prayer kept me sane and strong during the worst times
i am sure it'll work for ya.
love you tons darling

tag replies

*amanda* hey!! haha heard u went to milan for SEP!! lucky you!! see ya around when u're back!! hugss

*ping* hey girlie. one more paper to go! so just do it!! and no more changing landscape ever!! yupp better meet up during the hols. shoppppping!! hope the bangkok trip will come true so u can get things for me! haha muacckksss!!!!

*linddaaa* heelllo dadaa haha one day we should all go shop and eat!! all in one day!! luckss for exams!!! cheeeersSS!!!b

*key* hey!! it's ok.. i know of pple who ends at like 5th?? yupp great year with ya!! can't wait to see ya soon manz! meet up k!

the good ole times

sweeeeeet

exams are over finally.
in other words, this semester is over! holidays! well, not much of a holiday anyway.
econs was really horrible, i may jus need to take it again next semester. yes it is that bad.
oh well. tt means 2 extra modules next year. oh my. so many things i wanna do now.
finish up all my books, pack my room, move out of hall, prepare for work, prepare for OC,
run around, lose some weight, travel a bit hopefully, attend don's commissioning, comm's ball (haha),
spend time lazing around. ayeeee

busy sem. looking back, i really should have studied more.. just a lil bit more for econs i guess. oh well..

alritee.. toodless
first stop to ikea to get big big boxes for all the things in hall. haha gotta figure how to move the things back..

f-up

shucks. i'm dead. for the last two papers.
panic state

i love everything

i love everything around me.
really reaallly reaaaallllly do.
i love food, i love shopping, i love everything nice and great and pretty and meaningful.

raaa. in a good mood.
despite massive weight gain. haha

3 more papers to go...
need to get a dress for the church wedding!

exams, beat iT!

And here's to you, Mrs. Robinson,
Jesus loves you more than you will know.
God bless you, please Mrs. Robinson.
Heaven holds a place for those who pray,
Hey, hey, hey

We'd like to know a little bit about your for our files
We'd like to help you learn to help yourself.
Look around you all you see are sympathetic eyes,
Stroll around the grounds until you feel at home.

And here's to you, Mrs. Robinson,
Jesus loves you more than you will know.
God bless you, please, Mrs. Robinson.
Heaven holds a place for those who pray,
Hey, hey, hey

Hide in the hiding place where no one ever goes.
Put it in your pantry with your cupcakes.
It's a little secret just the Robinsons' affair.
Most of all you've got to hide it from the kids.

Koo-koo-ka-choo, Mrs. Robinson,
Jesus loves you more than you will know.
God bless you, please, Mrs. Robinson.
Heaven holds a place for those who pray,
Hey, hey, hey

Sitting on a sofa on a Sunday afternoon.
Going to the candidate's debate.
Laugh about it, shout about it
When you've got to choose
Every way you look at this you lose.

Where have you gone, Joe DiMaggio,
Our nation turns it's lonely eyes to you.
What's that you say, Mrs. Robinson.
Jotting Joe has left and gone away,
Hey hey hey.

i simply love this song. 4 more days to exams and i'm still quite slack. i'll pray really hard. ggrrr. ayee.. jus can't get down to studying very hard yet. went for ms susan's class and she told us how we must sleep early and wake up early and all. maybe i'll follow. haha. weather these days have been really erratic. very very very sunny in the morning, rain rain rain in the afternoon. i hate rain in the afternoon.. can't go anywhere! but these days, i guess it's good. keep me from going everywhere. haha so sleepY!! oh i found a job. perfume promoter at airport. it's for lulu castagnette. the same company which sponsored vbash for pru. glad to have found a job in may just before OC! yay! i kinda like working, i can lose weight from all the standing. haha.


i really hate the pimples on my forehead!!! AARRGGHH!!!


EXAMS!! beat it!!!

tonight tonight

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe that life can change
That you’re not stuck in vain
We’re not the same, we’re different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

And you know you’re never sure
But you’re sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe in the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there’s not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

We’ll crucify the insincere tonight
We’ll make things right, we’ll feel it all tonight
We’ll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight


smashing pumpkins in my playlist. non stop. didn't really study much these days. been playing around actually. haha but luckily got ping and lulu to accompany me to library to study. haha glad to have good friends around!!

happy happy easter

lalala

great day
-sleeping
-going for last econ lecture
-eating
-studying
-ikea dinner
-cold storage shopping
-productions pizza supper
-endless chats with my dearest neighbours

quite a day.
not much of studying. oh dear!

super super bimbotic entry

i simply love retail therapy. i guess no matter how broke i am, i always want to buy things. be it just a pair of earrings, or sara lee cakes, i jus loveeeeeeeeeeee shopping!!! and i simply love discount cards, vip cards, member's card, priviledge cards.. whatever you name it. i looooovvvvveeeee it. and i want more cards to my collection!!
i'm willing to work hard for all the goodies tt one can buy.. some kind of indulgence is really good. sometimes.

this weeek is strrreesssss weeekkK!! need to to the stupid new media project.. gggrrrrr.. this means less time for studying. yikess. this sucks. need to work harder!! good friday this week. don's gonna book out early! yay. i miss the bak chor mee near my house. shall eat it when i go back this thursday!!


i loveeeeeee!!!!

almost famous

watched this show the first time last night. it's a year 2000 film. and it was really fantastic. rock stars, groupies, rock journalist. i love it all. the storyline? just as great. great film by cameron crowe. a semiautobiography of himself actually. he used to work for rolling stones before he became a director and a scriptwriter. this film brought whelms of emotions. friendships and love and junkies. sometimes, i really wish i was in that era, or even earlier. 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s. where everything's so pretty and cool, esp fashion and lifestyle. not the 80s and 90s and now of cuz. haha everything's so commercialized already!
oh boy. somemore it was a kate hudson film. i dig kate hudson totally. haha. she's va va voom.

here's a lil synopsis of almost famous

When his love of music lands him an assignment from Rolling Stone magazine to interview the up-and-coming band Stillwater, William embarks on an eye-opening journey on tour with the band, despite the objections of his protective mother. With the help of the lovely "band aid" Penny Lane, William finds himself drawn into the band's inner circle. But as he becomes less an observer and more a participant in the band's dynamics, the fledgling reporter loses the objectivity to tell his story honestly, and learns a life-changing lesson about the importance of family--the ones we inherit, and the ones we create.

clueless!!!!

something interesting.. haha


Bimbo is a term that emerged in popular English language usage in the late 20th century to describe a stupid, pliable woman. (Its occurs as early as 1929: in the silent film Desert Nights, a title describes a cheap female crook as a bimbo.) Because it derives from Italian words of masculine gender, its first usage in English was for stupid men; it now is understood to mean a woman unless modified as male bimbo, himbo, or mimbo. Some still prefer the explicitly female variant bimbette, which has also entered The American Heritage Dictionary. Others use bimbette for a younger bimbo. The word bimbo is sometimes interpreted as the backronym "Body Impressive, Brain Optional".

A bimbo isn't necessarily highly sexually attractive. Being a bimbo is a state of mind, and reflects a person who exaggerates the effort and value put into her physical attractiveness. She is often perceived as a shallowly focusing on her physical appearance and neglecting the development of other parts of her personality.

The archetype of a bimbo with sex appeal is much used as a stock character in comedies with sexual humor, an example being Christina Applegate's character, Kelly Bundy, in Married... with Children. Alicia Silverstone's character, Cher Horowitz, in Clueless is more accurately described as a Valley girl, a similar archetype with more laughably unusual priorities and behaviors than are strictly derived from the bimbo themes of comical stupidity and sex appeal. An older comedy archetype of perhaps more direct resemblance to the bimbo is the dumb blonde—for example, the giggling, naïve characters often portrayed by such sultry actresses as Marilyn Monroe.

Humor deriving from blonde women's (or male jocks') stupidity has been accused of sexism.

I'm a Porsche Boxster!

You're stylish, nimble, and good-looking. When it comes to having fun, there are few who can surpass you. And yet, you suffer from a lingering inferiority complex. Maybe it's because you have an older relative who is always in thelimelight?

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

sometimes

sometimes, some things are hard to justify and control.
it's hard to say.
i should just shut up.


Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
And rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers and me.


Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it,
And look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.


All of us under its spell,
We know that it's probably magic...


... Have you been half asleep? And have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
... Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be...
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

butterfly - crazytown

this song used to be one of my fav! haha in secondary school. i think it was around sec 3?? when i met the ac sailors pk and jon and of cuz shawna! remind me of the time we went kite flying. oh goodnes.. the freedom of youth.
i'm really trying to study. jus too much distractions! and there's 2 more projects to go i realised. hmm i dun like this semester. haha


Butterfly - Crazytown
Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby

Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby

Such a sexy,sexy pretty little thing
Fierce nipple pierce you got me sprung with your tongue ring
and I ain't gonna lie cause your loving gets me high
So to keep you by my side there's nothing that I won't try
Butterflies in her eyes and looks to kill
Time is passing I'm asking could this be real
Cause I can't sleep I can't hold still
The only thing I really know is she got sex appeal

I can feel too much is never enough
You're always there to lift me up
When these times get rough I was lost Now I'm found
Ever since you've been around
You're the women that I want
So yo, I'm putting it down.

Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby
come my lady you're my
pretty baby ill make your legs shake
you make me go crazy

Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby
come my lady you're my
pretty baby ill make your legs shake
you make me go crazy

I don't deserve you unless it's some kind of hidden message
to show me life is precious
Then I guess it's true
But to tell truth, I really never knew
T'll I met you... See I was lost and confused
Twisted and used up
Knew a better life existed but thought that I missed it

My lifestyle's wild I was living like a wild child
Trapped on a short leash paroled the police files
So yo. what' s happening now?
I see the sun breaking down into dark clouds
and a vision of you standing out in a crowd.

Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby
come my lady you're my
pretty baby ill make your legs shake
you make me go crazy

Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby
come my lady you're my
pretty baby ill make your legs shake
you make me go crazy

Hey sugar momma, come and dance with me
The smartest thing you ever did was take a chance with me
Whatever tickles your fancy
Girl it's you like Sid and Nancy
So sexy....almost evil Talkin' about butterflies in my head
I used to think happy endings were only in the books I read but
you made me feel alive when I was almost dead

You filled that empty space with the love I used to chase
and as far as I can see it don't get better than this
So butterfly, here is a song and it's sealed with a kiss
and a thank you miss.

come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
so come and dance with me
uhhhhh ha uhhh ha

Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby
come my lady you're my
pretty baby ill make your legs shake
you make me go crazy

Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby
come my lady you're my
pretty baby ill make your legs shake
you make me go crazy

Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby
come my lady you're my
pretty baby ill make your legs shake
you make me go crazy

Come my lady
Come come my lady
you're my butterfly
Sugar.baby
come my lady you're my
pretty baby ill make your legs shake
you make me go crazy

come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
uhhhhhh ha uhhhhhh ha
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me
come and dance with me

good day

had quite a fun day today. firstly, went to teach vanessa. this girl is really cute. she warned me about hair cuts and how i always mark her work wrongly everytime i cut my hair. she claimed the last time i cut my hair, i was so pissed off tt i marked her spelling wrongly. haha what the hell! she's only 8years old!!! anyway, i had fun teaching her and all. threw a bit of temper too. tt's cuz she anyhow do my work.

after tt was meeting kevin in town to do some shopping. we both needed to buy caps. i needed it to hide my hideous hair. haha actually, i'm getting used to it. just that sometimes i really find it too short. ggrrr. he needed the caps.. ermm. for fun. oh well. so we went around. top shop has really nice things this season now. but really really expensive though. in the end, i bought a rip curl cap on impulse. kevin bought 2 caps can. and i love the mambo one he bought more than the rip curl one which i bought. dammit. dinner was thai express and gelares after tt! havn't had gelares for a looonnnnggg time and it's tuesday so it's half priced for waffles. kevin tt cock has never eaten gelares before. he had all the good food before and he has never eaten gelares before?!! diao.. anyway it's a very very full dinner.

went for OC first meeting after town. quite a fun bunch i must say. but what a combination too. i'm in Cultural and Social..together with aprilyn and kwan aik. haha i think and hope it will be fun! the previous OC passed down all their paperwork and proposals to us and told us a lil bit more bout everything. hope OC will be fun.. can't really imagine staying in hall during holidays when everyone's off to do their own things. hope i can travel a bit too. i miss going around with donovan, exploring places and just relaxing around tog with him. oh well. poor boy is having a hard time in army now. tough period before commission.

oh well. really really time to study.
and i really need to get jeans. =)
cheerios. a good day indeed.

when do you..

when do you know if it's time to change
when do you know if it's time to stop everything
when do you know if it's time to be assertive
when do you know if it's time to take charge of your life.


i'm so sick and tired of living a mundane life. i may feel really busy sometimes with hall stuff and school and shopping. but underneath everything, am i really living my life the way i want to?? sometimes, i just want to break free of all chains. when do you know when enough is enough? how i wish i was someone else entirely different. how i wish sometimes life wasn't that cruel. how i wish sometimes, life was just a lil bit more interesting. how i wish sometimes i have skills which marvel. how i wish sometimes i wasn't here, but somewhere out there, doing different things. i could be a painter, i could be a beggar, i could be a waitress, i could be in dean's list, i could be a fashion designer. now, i am really really tired of all that is going on. i hate it when i can't make decisions. i hate it when i can't choose. i hate it when i'm so incoherent. i hate it when everything seems to be going so fast and i'm always left behind. how i wish everything was different. sometimes i really hate to be at home when my sis will throw me dirty looks. sometimes i really hate to be in hall when there's just too many things to do.

i just don't think i have what it takes to be everything i want to be.
and somehow this feeling sucks.


ayee. i'm going nuts. marketing readings are killing.