yawn

i think this holiday is kinda fun and interesting. but it's a damn hectic holiday. been juggling my time between cheer, dance, hockey, table tennis and bash. haven't been catching much sleep. jus wished i have all the time in the world to rest, relax and chill. like today, nat and i were in my room. i was looking out at the sky. how i wished i was out there basking in the evening sun or sailiing in the sea or jus chilling out at some nice cosy place. but i was in my room. facing walls and window grills. i felt so trapped! it was as though i was an outsider jus watching each day slip through my fingers. yikes. holidays are meant to be relaxing! esp when christmas is coming. buying gifts and making cards have always been the highlight of this year end holiday. oh well. but there are some things to look forward to. the christmas party with my jc friends and maybe my bdae party. not sure if i should hold one. too much trouble and money involved i think. but it'll be fun. you're only 21 once. hmm.

oh well. i just hope my pru bash will go well. haha. i got strong psychic it will.

OOHHH!! last night, me ping n kevin watched the pageant videos and had a damn good laugh!! watching ourselves act was sooooooo funnnnnny!!! i love ping's and dom's video... both look soooo pretty!! kevin looked so 'wolf-like' in his video with key! pooor keY! haha whooops. watching those embarrassing videos really brought good memories bout pageant and all. the friendships n close bonds forged. not regretting a single moment..

and i really need to lose weight. i've fat face and double chin and flabby arms and thunder thighs and wobbly tummy and FAT FACE!! aarrgghhhhh!!!